sayonara ;)

hay. i'll be leaving tomorrow early morning and my parents keep on telling me to sleep already since we have to leave the house by 230 am! my gosh. that's too much mehn. hahaha and it's 9 pm already but i'm still hooked at posting in the the bloomfields site.

awww i'll miss you guys. i'll text you guys, just reply OK? hahaha.

waaaah i dont wanna ride the airplane tomorrow. :(( mehn im such a crybaby haha.

just wish me luck ok?

take care guys. :)

i'll be thinking of you :)

and hopefully, you'll think of me too :)

i do hope that i get to buy manga in the japan airport :D

-april 2007-

here's me with my new bob haircut. HAHAHA

-april 2007-

THE bobbing bob

it's 6 pm right now. and in a few more days, i'd be leaving this precious country i hate to leave. oh well. i'm all prepped up. i went to the parlor first thing this morning to have my hair cut. i got a bob! uhuh. it's short. the last time i had my hair cut this short was when i was about err....8 yrs old?!

yeah...and i can't blame myself. i now realize why i chose to let my ahir grow through the years. i looked like a grade-schooler when my hair's short.

too late though.

the lady was cutting away so much hair before i could say "oh no don't cut too much, i don't wanna look soooo young that the restaurants in the US will actually give me an activity sheet with crayons!"

hay. the look i originally wanted wasn't this though. i wanted to look kinda sophistacated but effortlessly stylish and magulo.

just like korean hairstyles, but for guys na medyo feminine. gets?

oh well.

you know i met my mom's dentist, who also used to be my dentist when i was a kid,since i had my teeth checked. and guess what? he actually said that i was small!!!! gosh, for such a long time, nobody has ever told me that!!

and to think, the last time he saw me, i was still a kid!

i was actually expecting him to tell me that i've grown waay much.

but no. he told me i was small.

at first, i felt happy since i thought i was so tall already and would look awkward with my skinny frame.

but after that, i just got annoyed and irksome because it was as if he was telling me that i didn't look old and mature enough.

nyargh. i guess he just got convinced because my new haircut made me look younger. but still! i don't like being called as small or tangkad.why can't they just greet me with a smile?!

i mean, it's bad manners to tell a person that he/she lossed or gained weight! and she doesn't look good. either way.

oh well. it will grow back. i need to wear girlier outfits since i'll really look like a kid if i don't!

hay. kung kelan pa naman college at laidback.


i'll be leaving soon. early wednesday morning. out the door by 2:45 am! my gosh. 3 hours flight to nagoya, japan! i'm actually excited to go to japan, due to watching all these anime. i hope i get to buy manga there in the airport. from what i remember, the airport there was huge! as in they had trains inside the airport to transport you from one terminal to another.

then ack, a 17 hour flight to detroit. mehn. i thought the flight was only going to be 12 hours since, last time, it was 22 hours. and that was years ago.

at least it's 5 hours shorter. but i really dislike riding planes. especially during long flights. i can't sleep and i feel so bloated and tired. plus, it doesn't help that i'm actually scared of riding planes.

i'm actually reassuring myself that the flight will be okay and that worrying will just make have something to do but not make me feel any better.

after that, there's another 2 hr flight going to florida. then yehey! it's disneyworld for me :)

nobody can stop me from meeting minnie mouse again. even jet lag. hahaha!

we've made our sched. and guess what? the resort-stayers inside disneyworld are privileged with extra magic hours!

wiii...so there :)

i just hope i get to sleep in the plane. that's usually my problem. this time, i'm gonna take benadryl to help me sleep.

and i do hope that we get upgraded to business/1st class since northwest is the client of ate. sana talaga!

bye for now. i'm bringing my phone, so you guys can still text me :) reply naman diyan ah!but i may not be able to go online there since we'll be staying in hotels.

i'm also excited to go to NASA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh! that was my original dream! to be an astronaut! REALLY. i was just so fascinated with space back then! yeah, i know. i was such a geekazoid!

i think that if i was raised in the US, my true geekazoid self will dominate and rise! coz there are soo many museums, art galleries, science centers, and zoos there! i mean, hello?! i'm going to be 17 but i still check out the TOP 15 PLACES TO VISIT IN WASHINGTON DC WITH KIDS.okayyyy.

i'm excited. just wish me luck with the plan. i just hope that i don't get a heart attack when we experience turbulence. :\

and i soooo envy miranda! she's going to the bloomfields gig on wed, the day i'm gonna leave. and i thought she wouldn't go, since i'm her only loyal bloomie buddy. sniff*

at least it's a wednesday, and i have good vibrations towards wednesdays. or at least during summer.

but i'm still lucky coz i won't miss too much bloomfields gigs since they'll be going to bora on the 26th. and go on a cruise on the 30th. hanep!

then it's singapore and hawaii for them. so i'm guesisng that when i arrive, more or less, they'll be here too.

bye for now ;)

love you guys :P sayonara :D

wish me luck haha.

-april 2007-

ugh. i feel so crappy right now. i knew it. being too happy will only make you even more miserable after. oops, did i sound too pessimistic?

haaay.

yeah, the bloomfields gig was a blast. i had fun and all. nothing happened bad these past few days. and there's not much to be stressed over since it's summer.

then why do i feel so crappy?

i dunno. there's really something with me that wheneever i reach the highest point (or so i think) of happiness, i just feel wrong after. i find something wrong in something. i worry about something that isn't even worthy of my thoughts.

i know it's not right to feel this way, but i just can't help it.

like dad said, i worry about things that haven't come my way yet. haaay.

i assume that you remember that i hate being ignorant and unknowledgeable. i have a big ego. but i guess it's not even big enough for me to be ambitious and competitive? agh i hate it :/

i'm just not balanced.

i'm inconsistent.

i'm insecure.

i'm malabo.

i feel
one day i like the way i look in front of the mirror, and the next day i find myself complaining and fessing up about almost everything.

i tell myself that i am beautiful in my own way. then i find myself ranting about how i secretly envy super pretty models. that i wished to have a sexier body. with bigger boobs and booty.

how i rant about how i hate my skin because it breaks out at the wrong time. why couldn't i inherit my mom's great genes? she was so sexy when she was my age. she had pretty wavy hair and long eyelashes. guys practically chased her.

why couldn't i inherit my dad's brains? why couldn't i be valedictorian like him?? why didn't i choose management engineering in the ateneo like him? why didn't i pass the double quota course business administration in UP like he did?

all i got was their other side of their genes.

i got my mom's imbalanced hormones, which makes my skin break out a lot. i got dad's genes of being balbon. i also got dad's genes of semi-kinky hair.

i also got my mom's genes in math, which makes me all dizzy at the sight of too many numbers.

and why do i have unhealthy white hair?

i don't look like my age. i look like a grade-schooler. my ninang even asked me what grade i was in. nyargh.

i hate being ignorant.

i hate being "small". i hate feeling unpretty. i hate not looking mature enough.

i hate hate.

but then again, nobody's perfect.

"I am the sum of all unconventional features, and that's what makes me beautiful" -Kate Torralba

i am thankful to God :)

-april 2007-

haha look at pepe's face! it's soooo funny!

come on miranda! no time for being torpe!

rocky baby!

just check out my multiply for more pics. you have to be my contact though.

http://ishipotsky.multiply.com/photos/album/92

-april 2007-

i also love wednesdays miranda :)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! :X :X :X
That’s all I can say for now!!!!! As in I’m super giddy, ecstatic, hyper, and happy! Ahhhhhhh!

Hahahaha.

i think this will be probably the best blog entry EVER.

For me at least.

You may not just understand. And might double think my over proclamation of this being the blog entry ever since all you might read right now is a bunch of “ahhhhhhs” and “:X”.
Forgive me for being too grateful.

Yesterday was a blast! At first, I thought it was going to be a drag since the only faithful “playmate” by my side was kay. Arra of course was supposed to go but wasn’t allowed since she had an interview in UST the following day.

Anyhoo, kay and I watched the movie wild hogs at eastwood. It was pretty funny I guess. But there’s not much of soul learnings or the like. It was just appealing because there were many great stars in the movie.

After that, we just walked around eastwood, and going places where I usually didn’t go. I discovered that there was a THE FACE SHOP branch.i bought a green eyeliner. A bit pricey though. Browsed through stores. Even saw jolina magdangal! She was having a shoot. Sort of Vj-ing. I dunno.

We even discovered that there was a timezone place in eastwood! Well, sort of. It was more on the surplus games/old ones. And they sold tokens for 10 php each! Not bad at all! Time crisis was there for ourselves. Although it was a hassle going up and down the stairs since the token booth was upstairs. I think the girl in the kiosk had fun watching us. I could have sworn that I saw her laughing at us. I can’t blame her. She had no customers at all anyway and there she saw two girls playing while shouting and swearing! Haha! FEEL NA FEEL NAMIN YUNG GAME. Wahaha. Well that worked me up a sweat.

Bought stuff from Watson’s and had dinner at yellow cab. Delish ;)

Me: o kay san na tayo?
Kay: ayan punta tayo sa a different bookstore.
Me: ay! Gusto ko diyan! Naalala ko si megan. Hahaha.
Kay: o baka gusto mo beauty bar muna?
Me: ay, ayoko, dito muna tayo.

I dunno, I just felt something about that bookstore. It just felt right :P

True enough I was right! Not only was I able to purchase the book that I had my eyes on for months, I was able to spot jayjay!

Kay: o ishi! Si (insert celeb’s name here).*points at a magazine cover
Me: wow! Haha (then looks at the couch.surprised!)kay! Kay!(mumbling)
Kay: o ano?
Me: (still mumbling)si jayjay!!!!!
Kay: saan?! Saan?!
Me: ayan o!

LOL.

We had to cover our faces with magazines while laughing! Hahahaha. Classic mehn. We kept on roaming around the shop! Hahaha. Pasimple.

He was with a lady that kinda looked like his mom and a mestiso kid.

Mommy: (to the mestiso kid)o, you choose a book. Only one book, ok? You can only have one so pick carefully.

Jayjay:come here. (then kinda whispers something to the kid and kisses the kid.

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!! How sweet ;) we were supposed to sit beside him but the yaya was the panira!

Hay naku. Oh well.

Headed for the fuente circle and found some seats. Woohoo! Ordered panna cotta and found Miranda. ;)
At least this time I can see rocky dear. :D

By the end of the first set, we swallowed our dignity by going backstage and having our pictures taken with the boys.
It was the first time that I saw that the “wall” that was covered by the tarpaulin was actually a room. THEIR CHANGING ROOM. When they were about to enter, they waved at us, since there were only the 3 of us! Hahaha. We were too shy to ask for pictures so we just said hi and waved back at them. siyempre, natanga ang mga torpe. Pero siyempre, reyna ng katorpehan ay si Miranda. Pepe remembered her name! as in he stopped and was stepping towards us and pointed at Miranda.

Pepe: uy! Miranda, right?
Miranda: (nodding while having this goofy mona lisa smile.)
I mean, hello! It’s obvious she was restraining her giddyness! Hahaha
Pepe: o, musta?
Miranda: (nodded, while leaning on the pillar)
Heck, she didn’t even say anything! This was chance. Mehn. sayang! Pepe was already showing signs that he was going to have a conversation with Miranda. E wala e. nagawa lang ni Miranda ay sumandal sa pader at mag-smile.

Hay naku.

Oh well. We made sure this time that we had to catch their attention. Once again, we found our butts in earth. Yup, by the fountain!

Announcer: may we request the ladies in front by the fountain to use the foam mats for your comfort.

Hahaha. I thought they would tell us to leave.

Oh they certainly took notice of us!!! Ahhhh!!! It was so much fun. It’s REALLY nice to actually have eye-to-eye contact with them. tiheeee. It’s as if I was the only girl for them. i could melt while looking at them. haaay. :D siyempre, may matching wink at actions! WALA NANG IBA. :X

Hahaha.:D
There was an encore. Wihhee!

Jayjay even said that this was their best gig EVER!!!! They sang surfin’ USA! And it was soo long! They kept on asking us to sing the last part. Hahaha! I’m not being feeling and at all, but Pepe kept on looking at me. Well my clothes at least. I think he was actually looking at my pocket coz my phone was there. And the bloomfields was pin was there. Haha. And guess what?! Rocky told us to stand up and dance for King Creole! My gosh! It was wild! Or maybe just Miranda and I? hahaha! It felt like a rock concert. Parang ako nanggaling sa chicosci gig. Miranda and I were head-banging and grooving to the music. Dance dance baby! Hahaha. Feel na feel. :D I didn’t care if people would laugh at us. It was too much fun baby! I was always tempted to dance in bloomfields gigs anyway. ;)

Pepe even went down the stage and played the guitar in front of me! Ahhh! Haha, don’t worry Miranda. He’s not my crush. Hahaha. It was just fun dancing surfin’ usa with pepe and his guitar. =))

Jayjay dedicated the song A Hard Day’s Night for us!!!

Jayjay: now this is for the girls in the 1st row.

Ahhhh :D

Promise, it was like déjà vu of senior’s night! Miranda, you’re not only my bloomie buddy, but my dance slash head-banging buddy too! Hahaha.

It was wild. I wouldn’t have thought that the people in the fuente circle would actually stand and dance. Mehn. you should have seen it. almost everybody was having fun and dancing. Hahaha.

After the 2nd set, we went “backstage” to have our pictures taken again. Haha. Well at least for Miranda. Apparently, the picture I took with her and pepe was sooooo hilarious for our own good! As in! hahaha nagmukhang nandidiri si Pepe ilagay ung kamay niya kay Miranda! Ahahaha.


Ishi: hi pepe. Pwede papicture?
Pepe: sure :D
ishi: o kay, ikaw muna.
Ishi: o ikaw Miranda.
Pepe: ikaw rin? (looks at me, then says) wow.

Ewan ko lang ah. Pero he kept on looking at my clothes. I’m like, WTF?! Was I so sweaty that my blouse became see-through? Did I look funny? Did I have a red stain in my butt?

Oh well. Bangag picture ko with pepe e. but it’s ok. Pepe’s for Miranda. :D

Anyway, they all went inside the room to change.

And yeah, fyi, the tarpaulin was covering a glass room. So when you raise the tarpaulin, you can see what’s inside!

Promise, I really didn’t know that they were changing when I looked! The tarpaulin was a bit lifted, and I happen to be in front of the lifted part. So I saw them. haha. Uhuh. Topless baby! All of them! well except for lakan, in which I have no regret since I don’t fancy lakan anyway.

My gosh. Okay okay, so maybe my mind was a bit perverted at that time. Ahaha.

Rocky’s hot mehn. but in a cute and totoy way. ;) perfect. :D
He changed into a red polo and wore his “dorky” glasses. Ahh! All the more that I liked him! I loooove totoy boys! Especially if they look cute in dorky glasses. Ahhhhh! Hahahaha

Jayjay was the last to come out and we were the first to approach him so we were able to talk to him!!!! Ahhhh!

After picture-taking with jayjay…
Jayjay: (hands out his hand to me) I’m jayjay by the way.
Me: I’m ishi. :D :D
Jayjay: oishi?
Me: no, ishi.
Jayjay: oh, ishi. Sounds Japanese. Are you Japanese?
Me: haha, no I’m not.
Miranda: I’m Miranda.
Jayjay: wow. What a nice name. it’s not everyday that I meet a person named Miranda.
Kay: I’m kay.
Jayjay: what?
Kay: kay. (about to say :kay. Just like jayjay. Rhyming see?)
Jayjay: nice to meet you guys. It’s not everyday that I meet someone named Miranda. And ishi. (then looks at kay)
Kay: (expecting something)
Jayjay: sorry, I LOVE YOU, KAY. (then semi-hugs her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

I was about to say I love you too but the again, HAHAHA. Apparently kay didn’t even hear jayjay say it!!! nyargh!!! Oh well hahaha.

Miranda and I were restraining our giddyness that I think I became too red.

Jayjay: so, you guys have our albums already?
Me and Miranda: yea!!!
Jayjay: wow. Okay ah. Buti pa kayo. Haha. Oh sige, we’ll go na.:D
Kay: see you next gig :D
Jayjay: yea see you.
Ishi: okay bye. Take care.
Jayjay: take care.:D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Haha it was midnight but my energy seemed to be in full blast.

It’s such an honor for us to be there especially when they said that it was their best gig EVER!!! And that’s because we were there in the 1st row, singing and dancing along. Woooh :D

Jayjay said I LOVE YOU guys! Ahhhh :D

Jayjay seems too perfect to be true. I mean, he’s nice to kids. Like a real kuya. He converses well. And tries his best to please everyone. It’s hard to imagine him cursing or something. Or even be real.

He’s just so likeable. Charming. :D

sa college kaya, never siya natataranta o napipikon sa mga prof??? mehn, I should’ve just said YES to la salle. L

ahahaha.

They’ll be playing again in eastwood next WED. while I, on the other hand will be jetsetting across half the world for 24 hours straight. Boohoo :(

They’ll also be enjoying the summer heat and fun at Club Paraw in Bora on the 26th. Haha adik ko noh? Yeah, I’ve downloaded their gig scheds. ;)

I love the bloomfields coz they love me too . ;)


check out the pics in my multiply. http://ishipotsky.multiply.com you have to be my contact though.

-april 2007-

oh yeah, here's a snapshot of my gmasked phone :P

cute noh? i originally wanted the beatles or the elvis design but the girl said that it won't fit. hndi din daw makikita ung design. oh well. i'm still happy with the design. it's not too girly or angas-ish. haha. the girl even said that most of the designs i picked were intended for guys. eep! haha. this one's just right :D


-april 2007-

went to glorietta 4 again the other day. the original plan was to go swimming with ii2 in celeb then hangout at tiki's house. but for some odd reason, tiki cancelled the last minute. hmm, she did that 3 days ago anyway. it's just really irritating because our minds were already set picturing the day ahead of us. i was already about to fall asleep when i heard my phone beep. i was like "tae naman. sino magtetext ng ganitong oras? it's already past 12." it was tiki, cancelling haaaaay.

oh well, i had the car anyway. so might as well make the most out of it. i called up my "emergency friends" if they wanted to go somewhere. true enough, they were too bored and too eager to get out of the house that any place was ok with them. we ended up going to G4, and what a fun day it was! josel, was again late. should i even be surprised? :)) hahaha.

i was also actually to go to divi with her and amaris, but i guess G4 sounded more refereshing. :P it was hard convincing josel to watch the THE REAPING. haha, you know how a scaredy-cat she is. hahaha. she even told us that she would just move around the mall while we watch the movie. yeaaaa righttttttttt. haha i even forced her to come by buying her the ticket. haha

we had some time to kill so we headed for timezone first. waaahh the day finally came! haha i've been longing to play in timezone for the longest time :P. G4's timezone is the best one coz i think it's the largest one. and it has sooo many games. nyahaha.

the 4 of us raced! DAYTONA USA. yebaaaa i won! haha. 1st place baby. :D come to think of it, i'm actually beginning to get better. and i am able to maneuver correctly. yeah, no more flying in the air from bumping into walls! haha. yeah, i'm excited to drive. :P

kay is my time crisis buddy. yeah :P

got our prizes. glow in the dark jurassic park stickers? haha. :P

the movie was good. at least it won't haunt me since (spoiler coming up! warning! do not read on...spoiler!)

lauren turned out to be the angel. at least it meant that God will always save us. mehn, the girl's soooo pretty! haha, she's the girl form charlie and the chocolate factory! the one who chews gum like forever!? yeah,,,she's sooo pretty! haha.

ok. i'm beginning to sound like a lesbo. but seriously, i've been trying to eliminate my girly cutesy baby-ish cheery disposition. i dunno, they suspect me to think about everything sweet like rainbows and fairies. oh well, it's not my fault to have a baby face. HAHA KIDDING.

well maybe not that, but they see me as a goody-two shoes. haha but hey, that's better than to have an impression of being a drug addict right?

i'm planning to have my hair cut. as in short and anime-ish. haha ok i'm beginning to sound geeky!

grabe,nakaka-adik rin pala ang anime. i never thought i would like em since i used to think that watching those were baduy.

but, actually, it's really fun to watch! it's soo cute! haha kawaii :D

i thank the creators of crunchyroll! yeah, it's soo much better than youtube! haha hindi putul-putol. plus, there's an anime index!

they even have the anime I love my younger sister! after 3 hours of downloading it from torrent, it was in cruncyroll all this time! waaaaah :((

i even finished My wife is a high school girl. haha a bit perverted but tolerable.

hmm...maybe today i can start with a new anime series. haha :D

-april 2007-

yay thanks to maki, i have "something to do" this summer. haha. for the past week, i found my lazy butt stuck to this computer chair of mine, and my mouth munching on junk food. i'm starting to feel a bit woozy since the only thing i do now is watch something on the net. nyahaha.

well my horoscope says that i shouldn't feel guilty when all my friends are all doing something "worthwhile" this summer, since i deserve all the laziness this summer. hmm, it also said that i should just rest this summer since i've really stressed lately. beh :P

but hey, i still feel a bit guilty since i'm not even productive. heck, my brain has degraded itself to a bunch of anime and koreanovelas. my mind is so slow right now, that i tend to forget things. uhuh. haaay.

oh well, at least i get to read when i watch anime and koreanovelas. :P

i've been watching koreanovelas again. particularly full house. :P siyempre, kamukha ko kasi si song hye-kyo e! hahaha joke lang!

well, i guess i'm just too bored to even care. i also watched the anime Gakuen Alice. it's cute. :D haha hotaru looks a lot like haruhi. haha. ok..i'm starting to sound like a dork. haha.

maki even told me about this "incest movie" about twins. haha. too bored to even care, i dopwnloaded it from torrent. it was a .mkv file so i had to download a program to play it. haaay.

naiinis ako. ang tagal tagal kong dinowload tapos 1 hr lang ung movie! it even appeared to me as a series. medyo walang kwenta rin kasi hindi ko man lang nalaman kung kinasal sila o hindi.:(

i think it was made by a bunch of lustful men who had psychotic problems. haha. it was more of the "action" if ya know what i mean. *wink wink*

oh well. i'll just pop in to crunchyroll to watch some more anime.

it's a lot like youtube but better and faster.

i remembered akazukin chacha! haha i used to watch em when i was still a kid. memories! haha

love
hope
courage

taena.

hahaha.

hopefully, i'd meet up with ii2 friends today. it's been a week or so i think since the last time we saw each other.

and oh yeah, the other night, we had a class partaaay at franny's. it was catered. :P the food was delish. :P

there was even karaoke! haha! it was fun hanging out with iv2.

kain.
higa.
inom.
tawa.
tulog.
lasing.

hahaha. dun pa kami sa may damuhan ah. nyahaha.

i think carme has a proble. she kept on gulping beer like crazy. she was even proud to say that she drank 5 bottles (maybe even more coz i left already) and said she wasn't even drunk. wehhh carme. tawa ka nga ng tawa e. at nagaambisyong kausap si raffy at jhe.

haha joke lang carme. love u! haha :p

still, she looked a bit troubled.

i just realized that if it weren't for my parents, i would've become a lasinggera. mainly because my parents don't drink. and if ever they do, they only drink wine. haha, but that's even worse right? since it has more alcohol content compared to beer. i don't know, but ever since i was a kid, i'd usually ask for a refill. take note: as early as 8 yrs old, i was bound for addiction to alcohol. i dunno. i just liked the feeling.

buti na lang hndi natuluyan. good thing most of my ii2 friends don't drink. :)

haha. we have all the flavors of vodka cruiser in the fridge right now. well it's been there for like...3 years?!

someone gave it.

i wonder when will be the day that it'll actually be drank.

mukhang masarap ung strawberry. :P

heck, ate doesn't even drink. she can' t even stay up till 12. haha. oh well.

i guess i'm the only nocturnal creature here at home. mom and dad are asleep by 9 or 10. haha

-april 2007-

nyahaha.:P

-april 2007-

aaah haha kinilig naman ako. i super crush her! haha :X just let me be, ok? i know it is quite unrealistic, but i'm just soooo happy that i sort of resemble her. bayaan niyo na ako magfeeling ah?! minsan lang nman to e haha.

-april 2007-

it's already 5 minutes before 12 and i still haven't eaten breakfest. bravo mehn. like i said, my body clock is still my stc clock. well in terms of waking up that is. i usually fall asleep 1 am already. then id wake up around 6 am? i know it's still early coz there's still no sunlight! haha.

i was too sleepy to get up at 6 so i slpet again and woke up at 11. haha.

anyway, yesterday we went to glorietta 4. and o yeah, HAPPY EASTER! haha. as part of tradition in this household, we went easter egg hunting. woohoo! though it was kinda different this time coz usually i'm the one in charge of painting the eggs. but yesterday, almost everyone helped me in the painting! even lola did! haha. at least it made her relax a bit. that's good since she just got sick. ya know? dad even painted. which is so surprising! coz all my life he gave the dignity of saying "anak, wala akong kwenta sa art." haha even my mom! haha it's fun to watch them. super. haha. dad even made a pineapple design, which at first, i thought was just a zigzag design. nyahaha.

wanna know a secret? i painted a design that kinda reminds me of "him". and i asked a sign that if i find that egg, we really are meant to be.

taena.

haha i found the freaking egg. but after that, i just kinda wished that i didn't find the egg. :| haha. it was actually kinda symbolic since dad just had to hide it in a very unlikeable place. he hid it inside a banga for crying out loud! i think it was rather symbolic since the eggs was inside a plastic bag inside the very deep and dirty banga and i tried looking at dad for his approval. but he's smart, he looked away! haha so what the heck, i just grabbed the plastic bag which actually looks like garbage, and what do ya know,it was THE EGG.

and to think i was kinda hesitant no?

i'm really not sure if i'm happy about it or not. bahala na haha.

the banga looked so dirty inside that i had second thoughts of sticking my hand in! haha. the eggs was also inside a white plastic bag so it actually looked like trash. i tried looking at dad's reaction when i stuk my hand inside. but dad looked away! haha. so what the heck, i stuck my hand in. haha and guess what?! it was THE EGG. i really didn't know what to react. was i even happy? i dunno...i know it is kinda corny and sappy to actually think it was a sign. but hey, bahala na. haha

but the other sign was being able to talk to "him" before the week ends. and i was able to talk to him. nyargh. i was actually kinda expecting of sorta hoping that i wouldn't be able to talk to him. but i did. taena.

o anyway, the egg hunt was fun. only now, only my ate and i joined. kuya ryan didn't team up with ate! woohoo! haha you know, dad's hiding places are getting harder by the year! last year, he even went through the trouble of pasting leaves on the egg.

this time, he hid the agg on top a small trea, and underneath a nest. mehn. he evn hid an egg underwater and under a pail. mehn. haha. there were only 10 eggs and we each found 5, so i guess it's just fair. haha. dad even camouflaged one egg by the swing! haha.

i think i'll never outgrow the easter egg hunt. it's just so much fun! and i guess we'll be having egg salad for the whole week! haha

we also went to glorietta yesterday. ate at luk yuen. yay! i got to eat my fave shrimp dumplings :D
had my phone gmasked!

woohoo haha! it's super fab! it's shades of pink and black. it's graphic designed so it's not that girly. just the way i like it :D

at first, the design that i really like was the beatles design. kaso the lady said that it doesn't suit my phone since most of the design won't be seen. waaah. oh well. the next one i liked was the elvis-inspired. but the again, it won't fit daw :(( boohoo. the following designs i picked out were not feminine, according to the girl. usually daw pinipili un ng mga lalaki. haha. she found me a bit weird coz i told her i didn't like the girly designs haha.

oh well haha.

i ended up picking out the graphics-inspired design. it's not too girly and it's not green anymore. haha coz all my stuff ryt now are green, remember?haha

i'll post the pics later.

and oh yeah, in a week or 2, my pic will come out of the gmask site daw. haha. :P

-april 2007-

polyamorous.

funny. i wouldn't even know the meaning of this word if i didn't watch the tyra banks show a while a go.

polyamory means having many loves. this means having multiple intimate realtionships with either the same sex or the opposite at the same time. it's like a chain circle, wherein, all the people in the circle are intimately involved with each other and are knowledgeable about their partners' affairs.

in simpler terms it's like this. for example: i have a boyfriend, who also has another gf. i know about this and the other gf also knows about me. and the 3 of us, are intimate with each other. even with the girl. yes, the 3 of us. and we are committed to each other.

DANG.

wow. i thought those kind of relationships didn't even exist. i mean hello?! i already have a hard time with one. how can they handle 2?! and not only that, when i watched the show, there was this one family who had polyamorous relationships. originally 3 in the picture, they became more than 10!!

my gosh.

i was just in shock.

i mean, don't they get jealous?!

and ewww mehn.

but hey, they're people too. and they have as much rights as i do. but it's just really refreshing for me to hear this kind of stuff. and not to mention, weird!

in the show, there was this 16-yr old girl, who grew up in a polyamorous home and said that she thinks that no one should be committed to only one person because you are stranggled and limited. you can never find everything in 1 person.

well for me, it is better to just find the right person, and spend my whole life with him rather than to have multiple partners at the same time so that they can attend to my wants and needs. but that's what love is all about. you accept everything, even though you know he's not perfect.

but hey. it's modern-day relationships.

if i were in a polyamorous relationship, i would want to have it with a guy ang girl. so yeah, maybe i am biosexual.

it's because i'm having second thoughts of liking girls again. just because of a stupid guy that broke my heart. maybe guys are just too much for me.

i'm just letting things flow by right now. i do hope this is just a phase.

oh well, this is so teleserye-ish! that's enough for now.

O.C.?

-april 2007-

hey ho diggidy! now where did that come from?! i dunno haha! i'm thinking of catchy and funny lines in replace of the usual putcha and shit.

holy ozones!

holy shit!

holy guacamole! haha

sweet neptunes!

nyahaha. i'm working on it.

how about this. sweet underpants!

hahahaha.

i guess i have nothing else better to do. i'm stuck here at home again. blogging. and once again, i got bored of reading harry potter and opted to just blog. maybe i'll read again later.

it's friday. and it's supposed to be a time for silence and refelction. : hmmm. well it's been quiet the whole day. i found myself talking to myself again, if you know what i mean.

i guess reflecting or reminiscing has just become this habit that i don't need to be reminded to do it for holy week.

i'm used to entertaining my stubborn self. well when i was a kid, at least i had my playmates to accompany me in this time of despair. at least we could combine our ideas and come up with a game or something.

but now's different.

all i've got this summer is me. or at least until i go to florida.

but seriously, i have no one to talk to. the closest friend i've got right now is this blog of mine. which, to my disadvantage, doesn't even talk back. hahaha

oh well, i'm not blaming my friends, they're always there anyway if i need em.


i just choose to be alone.

maybe i'm back to this self-contained girl again. the girl who wants to be ignored. the girl who wants everything to be the same.

the girl. the little girl.

in a few months, i'll be in college and i think i'm beginning to return into my old self. where i hide in my own shadow.

all throughout the years, i have always been this indifferent soul. the one who you ask "how was your day?" and my reply would be "uh. fine"

well at least that's what i say to people who really don't know me.

i'm bored with my life.

my likes have been always contradicting. sometimes i like bloody and morbid things. and sometimes i like rainbow-coated and happy characters. full of glitter and sparkle. perfect?

well i guess, i still can't decide on which side i'm really on.

i think i'm more on the gray side. the boring side. the indifferent side.

which is even worse. i need to be more idealistic and ambitious. no time for lazing around and stalling. no more "huh? what?". no more stupid looks when asked.

just you wait, i'll be a super activist. an over-achiever.

or so i say. maybe i'll just eat all my words a few months later.

-april 2007-

it's maundy thursday and i'm all alone here at home. for the first time in my entire life, i ate by myself. the food served was only intented for me. well i'm used to eating alone. but before, there were other people, but just weren't present because i'm late or something. a while ago was different. lola's in the hospital kasi.

well yeah, the maids are here, but that's different. i felt like one of those kids in the US where their parents went away for the weekend and is all alone at home. usually, they'd throw a party while their parents are gone. but not me. a party? a bit boring especially when it's ok with my parents if i had my friends over. and what would we do anyway? it's not like that when i call for a party, the whole batch will come over and would have sex with guys as they play 7 minutes in heaven.

too boring.

hahahaha. i guess thos kind of stuff aren't that appealing to me.

i'd rather go to gigs. nyahaha


anyway, i spent the day watching Meteor Garden. ahhh the memories! hahahaha. i still got kilig even if i watched it a lot of times already. :)) but come to think of it, i haven't watched MG II yet. well i kinda got bored with it when it was aired in national TV. it was also a bit dragging. the kilig and pettyful fights weren't present anymore. and it wasn't as funny as the 1st MG. yesha was also kinda irritating.
lei's sooo cute! :x
so maybe i'll watch MG II tomorrow. if we won't go to plaridel anymore that is.

i'm missing Ouran. arra hasn't return the dvd yet. bummer.

i also miss watching ranma. but i've watched the complete set, so why watch it again?

i miss watching koreanovelas.

i miss the thrill of buying new koreanovelas at divi.

MG reminded me of those days! 1st-2nd yr days! and i remembered how crazy we were about the show. and about F4. i miss the days where all our class presentations involved MG. i miss elai for being crazy about dao ming sz. i miss aca and her kilig days with Ken. and when she asked us to call her Ken. i also miss the days when i was crazy about hua tze lei. hahaha :P

those were the days. :D

i need to go back to divi to score some new finds! hahaha

-april 2007-

i'm tired of getting my heart broken all over again. i feel so stupid for falling again and again. after every time my heart breaks, i find myself saying the same thing again and again.

"How could you be stupid? i thought you promised yourself that you won't fall for his flirty ways again? you know he's not serious. or is he? then why did he balah blah blah. i thought he was different from other guys. he's very sensitive and mature compared to other guys. he's the only one who cheers me up when i really have a bad day. he's my first love, how can i forget easily. "

"geesh ishi. for over 4 years, you have been saying the same old excuses. :(( you've been hurt a million times by this guy, but why haven't you learned your lesson and just find the RIGHT one for you? someone who truly loves you."

over the years, i've met guys. yeah, sure. i've liked a number too. but it isn't the same.

but hey, i'm just 16 right? who am i to say that he's the one? geesh, i have a whole life ahead of me. besides, i'll meet new guys in college.

but it doesn't stop me from feeling bad.

i hate it when he makes me feel so stupid. i hate it when we're no longer as close as we used to. i hate it when he tells me about being in love. i especially hate it when he's crazy about my friend. i hate it when he's flirty. i hate it when he ruins my mood when i'm all perky and stuff. i hate it when he acts like a little boy. i hate it when he says he loves me because i know it isn't true. i hate it when he sees me after i have tried my best hiding. i hate it when he talks to me and looks at me at the eye. i hate it when we both can't understand that we're saying. i hate it when i feel insecure around him. i hate it when i see him and try to grab the nearest bush. i hate it when he acts he's interested and that i don't entertain him. i hate it when he's in college and that i'm still in high school. i hate the fact that he had changed immensely. i hate it when he makes me feel giddy. then i feel that i'm making a complete fool out of myself. i hate it when he texts me when i'm a middle of a serious matter in school because i can't help but smile in front of my panicky groupmates. i hate it when we talk late at night because i know it won't last. i hate it when he ignores me when he's busy. i hate it when he doesn't chat me when my status in ym is "busy". i hate it when he treats me like a sister. i hate it when he makes plans of hanging out. i hate it when he's around because i'm not myself. i hate it when i secretly find him cute. i prefer him a bit disheveled. i hate it that we almost have the same circle of friends. i hate it when he's in the same college as i'm going to. i hate it that he didn't invite me to the prom. i hate the fact that i've been this anti-social dork during my high school years. i hate it when a day didn't pass by without me thinking about him. i hate it when i'm actually having second thoughts of liking girls again. i hate it when i try my best to be pretty for him. i hate it when i feel so stupid.

and i hate it that i'm really not serious.

oh i hate myself for actually posting this.

and oh and i love him.

-april 2007-

wow. it's like i haven't been online for so long. so when was the last time i went online? was it yesterday or the other day? oh who cares.

for these past few days, i have been avoiding this certain person. but it is kinda late for him to know that i am avoiding him since i already talked to him (or was rather forced to) the other day. the reason why iv'e been trying to avoid him was because i realized that he isn't any different from any other guy. fyi, i see guys as jerks. they just toy with our feelings ultil they get what they want. they say i love you, but turns out, they're not even sure if they really do. they just say it for the sake of being in control of the girl's feelings. it's like winning in a bet. what do you see of us girls? trophies that you can just show off with your friends? well i've got news for you, never in a million years would i let someone "own" me nor shall i belittled. nobody owns me. and whoever hurts me, will be dumped in the garbage. and oh, i won't let anyone step on me. i'll teach them pretty good. my inner boyish side will soon come into full form and just you wait when i raise hands.

kapow.

don't you dare mess with me, mister. as a matter of fact, i love it when i feel empowered. i love when i know that i cannot be bullied nor pushed around.

at ibabaon ka sa lupa ni tiff. right tiff? bwahaha >:)

good job knuckles. :D

-april 2007-

my lola's at the hospital right now. apparently, she had a high fever around midnight and had the chills. according to yaya, she was trembling but was drenched in sweat. after all the commotion, i didn't wake up at all : mehn.
i really AM a heavy sleeper.

dad just told me seconds after i woke up at around 8 am. she was rushed to MCU so that tito monette could easily monitor her.

oh shoot. i still had to go tiki's house for carmel.

when megan came at around 10, i was unusually quiet. obviously, she wasn't used to that, so she asked what was wrong. i just froze for about 10 minutes without saying a word.

but after a while i told her about lola. that i was worried about her. for crying out loud, my lola's 94! she's generally healthy. no heart ailments or the usual ailments that seniors have. although, it's very dangerous for her age to have a high fever. and i think she also has some issues with her left lung. she also has UTI daw. she doesn't drink a lot of water kasi e. oh well, i guess i just didn't want to worry too much since worrying won't do anything anyway.

also told megan about my other problem. about "him". that he already has a girlfriend. and i thought we had something special! punyeta.

arra, kay, and keng arrived too and we headed for tiki's house near fernwood. gawd for about 20 minutes, we got lost! i mean the tricycle drivers weren't exactly helpful, you know?! we'd ask "saan po dito ang mystic rose? e ang san vill?" and their reply???? "dun!(with matching nguso!)"

wow. as if that would be enough! thank you ah! hahaha. well we finally found tiki's house.

tiki's maid told us to to the BLO rom. BLO pala ah. hindi ba blue room?! hahaha.
watched the O.C. :-p i miss ii2 and their crazy antics. not to mention lusty minds :))

watched human instinct! and step up. wooh lupeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet ng basic instinct! and i thought i already saw everything when we watched the american pie series and the trips. (road trip, eurotrip, boat trip 1 & 2, and bad trip)

their favorite? poison ivy. wooh lupit mehn.

hahaha. but basic instinct was sooooo intense mehn. it's too much. too yucky :

i can't believe they actually permitted it to be shown! oh well, it was fun screeching with ii2. we kept on screaming when sharon stone would kill the guys.

ICE PICK anyone???

oh well, i wasn't able to finish the movie coz i had to go visit lola at MCU.

i love you lola. i do hope richie's right. i hope you can go home by friday. or even earlier.

-april 2007-