gathering my senses

i just read a couple of blogs and i just can't help but feel kinda bad myself. i just received my advisory marks last wednesday and it was BAD! i did manage to reach the required QPI though. but still, it was BAD! gosh, there i was, staring at a white strip of paper, and i just couldn't believe what i saw! i said "this can't be! this must be some sort of mistake or misunderstanding. i just cannot possibly have these grades." i "kinda forced" myself to look happy in front of my block though, we're still not that close for them to actually see me "fail". you see, i don't take failure gracefully. and i usually find myself in denial. see? i really tried myself to look happy in front of my blockmates. oh well.

kaya nga,
saan ang tungo mo, mahal kong kaibigan?
basta't hanap ko'y katahimikan.

Iisang bangka tayo!
Daluyong ng dagat ang tatawirin natin.

we can do this guys! :D iv2 and ii2, you're the only guys keeping me more
sane these days.

i have to, i repeat, i have to BE SUPER SIPAG! as in, i have to reject my social life (like i kinda did in my 4th yr- but at least before, i didn't have to worry about some other things)

i failed in my first quarter of my first year in college, but i just WON'T fail anymore. i just can't. but if ever i do, i should never, never think of leaving Ateneo. hindi maaari. kahit ngayon, napapaisip ko na rin na baka hindi talaga ako dapat sa Ateneo. pero kasi, binigay ni Lord to sakin e. He gave me a chance. and besides, what i prayed for before was a college that i would grow in; somewhere I will eventually graduate from. after that, i will be successful.

tapos ayun, pumasa ako ng Ateneo. so, i really have to prove myself's worth. i just can't throw away the chance given to me.

thanks for all the hugs guys. :D (sandra, raffy, makis, miranda, josel,mea, and tiki) it really helps. kasi, obvious naman na hindi ko pa naman nayayakap mga blockmates kong lalaki.

i learned my lesson.

LUX IN DOMINO.

better yet, Let your light shine, and be a blessing. :D

-august 2007-

i survived!

yay! haha. i survived one week of not blogging! :P haha. but that still doesn't stop me from blogging my week. (hey! it takes time to get over an addiction)

monday:
yay! iv2 reunion! it was fun. :D even though we kinda disturbed the "peaceful" ambiance of Mcdo. we were so loud! haha and funneh. people were staring us and giving us weird looks while we shared our exagerrated kwentos and not-so-demure laughter. :P it was nice seeing them again. it keeps me sane, ya know ;) haha how ironic, isn't it?

we took a cab going to trinoma. yeah, i know right? dad finally let me! haha. we (mea, tiki, raffy, josel, and feliz) went to different shops just to fit clothes! haha it was so much fun. we did manage to buy a few. :P the best talaga shirt ni raffy e. LIBRE HIPO tapos may pic ng hippo :P

wednesday:
our lit presentation of the the story Penmanship by Jose Dalisay. the presentation itself kinda sucked. the order of the ppt was messed up and we all didn't know why it was so. they kept on blaming each other and all cathy and i could do was roll our eyes. i mean hello?! how could they be so careless and plain lazy? arrgh and i thought we were overprepared. that's what you get for having your presentation delayed for a week. anyway, the ppt was the only thing messed up. but it was bearable naman. i was just disappointed because i expected that our presentation would be close to perfect.

BUT! our lit teacher said something about me that really REALLY made my week. it was actually my first compliment that i received in ateneo. well, it's a start. :D at the end of our pres, she told me that the Irony part was actually very well done. and moi, Denise, did a great job. she said i was very good. :P oo na, mayabang na kung mayabang. pero kasi, hello? masarap parin ang feeling. :) and i was the only one she complimented. :P

thursday:
i think, that maybe, my fil teacher actually knows me already. he should ya know, after we interviewed 2 Psych professors and 2 psych students for the sake of the assignment he gave, he should just know me! hahaha. if not, he will soon!

friday:
i arrived at school at around 7 am for something too embarassing to type in here. :P hung out at the lib for about 4 hours. the time there was interesting though. some guy named dan kept on insisting that i'm a girl named donna. sheesh. i already told him i wasn't donna but all he could say was "sus kunwari ka pa. alam ko nman ikaw yan e. sige na, kita tayo maya sa jp rizal. blue motor ko. kahit may asawa nako, ako parin ang dating dan"

sinabi ko na lang "putik talaga. ang kulit mo. maghintay ka magisa mo. dude, lalaki ako!"

and after that i didn't reply to his pathetic texts and calls. turns out, he really did wait in jp rizal for 2 hours. suit himself. i did my part. poor guy. he must be in denial and miserable with his wife. haha see? may nalaman pa akong buhay. hahaha

anyway, i waited for megan, then fetched miranda for trinoma! wooh! HAIRSPRAY's like my so fave movie! ahhhhhh!!!! :X zac efron was so hot! as in miranda and megan were wacking me all over! ahhh :X super! in HSM kasi, he looked such an airhead! in Hairspray, he looks like elvis and he looks so suave and just soo hot! :x

awww, now i really wish that i was just born during the 60's. you know me right? i so love everything 60's. the clothes, the people, the music, the interiors, the outlook of people of "make love not war" (im kidding on that part hehe), everything! and watching the movie kinda made me sad. haha. :P oo na, weird nako. :P i treated miranda and megan to ice cream in cold stone. and it was delish! i had choc mint with gummi bears and kitkat :D the guy even made the gummy bears stand up. :P haha.


saturday:
tugon! yay! isabel finally played with me! :D and the kids were more welcoming. :P isabel bit me on the stomach. ouch 0.o bonding with other tugoners justin, khairon, kaye, and ate karen. :)

oh yeah! ATENEO WON over FEU! :D ye baby! at eto pa, nagbrownout pa nung last 2 minutes. the last quarter was just so amazing! too bad i kinda fell asleep while watching the game because i was too darn tired.

-august 2007-

Happy 100th post! :D

haha i just realized that this is my 100th post in blogspot! haha wow!and to think i only started blogging in blogspot last january. hehehe. but seriosuly, i should avoid blogging as much as possible. i think i may be addicted to it already 0.O


anyhoo, classes were suspended since wednesday so i've been getting enough sleep :D problema ko nga lang ung lit paper. :( oh well...this happens. :(


and oh! i made a new t-shirt design! :D hahaha it's a statement shirt.




it's in red and black paint so it kinda mimics the I heart NY kind of shirts. :P



and oh! i tried photoshop-ing awhile ago and i was just so amazed with the different kinds of brushes! hehe :P i know i'm not any good but i still find it cute. kaya pagbigyan niyo na ung bata a? ngayon lang kasi nakakakita ng photoshop e. :P








i bought some silkscreen materials yesterday so i'll have something to do during the long weekend. hehe i'm ignoring my studies. baaad. >:(

watched rush hour 3 yesterday. it was pretty funny. haha :P

so there. bye for now, i'll think of some designs for new shirts :P

-august 2007-

how ironic

arrgh i hate this. i have to submit a lit paper on friday and i'm clueless on how to do it! we were supposed to have a consultation a while ago but since classes were suspended it was cancelled narin. hayaya. my lit teacher's so hard to please. waaa :( and i'm scared coz if i don't interpret the story right, i may automatically get a failing mark. :( or a grade close to F. yeah, she's like that. :( isn't lit supposed to be interpreted by the reader? and that any interpretation should be accepted? oh well. bahala na.

i was so pooped that as soon as i arrived from school (around 1pm) i fell asleep in my bed (doi), still in my school clothes. eww. haha and i woke up at around 730 already. hay. i tried doing my lit paper already but it was no use. gawd. i'm getting worse. :( i was like struggling to get my thoughts organized. arrgh i hate it! where's a boyfriend-slash-yaya when you need one? HAHAHA kidding. yak. ayoko ng ganun.

i feel down right now. I guess you just outgrown me already. you've finally woken up and saw the real me. and you thought you already knew me. guess not. you used to be so sure about me, but now, you've finally said goodbye without any hesitation. bakit ganun? parang wala tayong pinagsamahan? it's because of what you said that i want to change.

but no. i won't change for anyone. if ever i do change, it'll be for me. and not for someone else. it is good that i've come to realize that you lost interest in me already, before i truly get hurt. (as if it wasn't enough that i suffered for 4 years)

lit isn't helping either. i'm practically crawling here.

let's just loook at the bright side. at least i'll get some extra sleeping hours. :)

oh yeah, GUYS! iv2 and ii2! let's watch Hairspray next friday! trinoma :D we can just meet up there or you can hitch a ride with me if you're in ateneo. :D hehe para naman di lang kami ni miranda ang magdate sa friday! hahaha

good luck to me and my guts. i think i'm actually beginning to regret something. hmm...i wonder what it is. *insert sarcastic smile here*

-august 2007-

tayo na't humataw

hay. classes again tomorrow. it's my midterms in PE tom! wish me luck! haha. go aerobics! =))

this weekend was tiring. partied yesterday at cosmo bar. kat's bday celeb. thank goodness kay, arra, megan, and kookie were there to accompany me! hahaha :P we had the loser's table e. parang nasa liblib hahaha. but we were beside the stage though. we were just away from the dance floor. e hello. yun kaya habol namin. HAHA

haaaaaaaaay. yun lang masasabi ko. hindi ko na lang dito ilalagay kung bakit. basta alam na nila yun. dba kay? hahaha wink ;)

hahaha but don't get me wrong, i had fun with ii2 :D i always do naman e. :) let's just say we had our own partaaay by our table. hihihi :P SO WHAT IF WE LOOKED STUPID DANCING BY OURSELVES?! hahahaha we just couldn't help it! hahaha. too bad onti lang kami. hay. oh well. we chugged in some SanMig Light to toughen ourselves up to dance by ourselves. oo, kahit mukha kaming mga nagwawalang unggoy. HAHAHA the term! oh well.

left at around 1130. yeah, too early huh? oh well there's still next time. i had to bring kookie home early e. but we still had fun. :D

btw, this week will be a bit heavy already. upcoming deadlines are just around the end of the month, so i expect MYSELF to avoid blogging and multiply-ing these upcoming weeks. i must i must! hahaha TECHNO diet! hahaha. sana makayanan :P

wish me luck with our lit oral pres! i'm scared. 0.o

-august 2007-

just another day

wipee!!! classes are suspended today :P finally! i get to experience the suspension of classes-even when i'm in college! woohoo!

oh well, i think i kinda overslept last night. i just feel so damn tired this week and i don't even know why. it's not even hell week yet. but we're certainly getting there. i got to prepare an oral presentation on Penmanship by Jose Dalisay for Lit. i admit,i am kinda nervous, it's gonna be my first "formal" report away from high school. it's gonna be different. :/

since there aren't classes today, i might start doing 1 out of 4/5 papers for FIL or Pnoi( i like calling it Pnoi). demmet! i gotta make critique papers using theories such as Russian formalism, existensialism, feminism, surrealism, etc. it certainly isn't hs anymore. before, i just used motherly quotes and moral lessons and i was good to go. now's a lot harder. i got to cite textual evidence and the archetypal approach isn't applicable anymore. so wala ng EKO-KUL-POL at mga aral sa buhay na dinadakdak ni dacutan. hayayay.

these past few months, i've been thinking of switching courses. i don't think i can bare management, accounting, and a 6-unit calculus subject. to tell you the truth, i can't really see myself graduating form my course and actually working in a bank like all my family members are doing. i just can't digest the formality, the diplomat ways of professionalism, and the tight schedules that i am about to face. frequent meetings, boring oral reports, statistics analysis, and money matters. my personality just isn't like that. for the past year, i have been in constant denial that i have entered the wrong course. i kept on "forcing" myself to like it and accept it.

let's just see next year...

miranda, i have a confession to make. i envy you and your course in UP. you just can't imagine how i wish to have your course. well, not exactly. heck, i can't even draw properly. :P i just miss the fun of art and creating new stuff. i like innovating things, you see. maybe, i just miss my hobby. in short, i just miss the informality of art and being creative. i miss the free-spirited ambiance and a no-fuss way of thinking. i've been denying my creative side recently. i guess i'm just too tamad lately. grabe, what has happened to me? i'm so lazy with school and just about anything. i think i may be "dematuring" (is there such a word?) basta. i think my bad habits are coming back again. looong story.

oh well, here's a toast to my confused mind. may it finally decide my destiny.

cheers!

-august 2007-

iv2 ye wastebasket. :D

hay nako tae talaga. i so miss iv2 :(( as in! haha. i just watched the video that joyce posted in multiply. demmet! i was super nostalgic and emo!!!! okay, lahat kami kinalibutan! it's almost been a year since we were declared as THE CHAMPIONS!!! oo na, mayabang na kung mayabang. hahaha. ye wastebasket baybeh! wink wink :P

actually i'm enjoying in ateneo. surprisingly, the people there aren't snobbish and all rich-y maarte type. they're really really friendly, it's as if they're super glad to help US FRESHMEN! as in they're super nice and cheery that sometimes, it kinda scares me. :P i already made a lot of friends, and can call a few ones "really close" (they know my deepest darkest secret that only about 5 people know about). i have seen them in their not-so-pleasant state, and their degrees of getting pikon. i have discovered their limits and also their kakulitan. :P i have introduced my uber wacky side to them. now, i'm thinking that they might have seen too much of it. :P i have played childish games with my blockmates (yes, including guys) such as habulan, tayaan, espadahan (using the arnis sticks), wrestling, a bunch of card games, and a whole lot of physical games. yes, i have been bruised a lot of times. it isn't new to me that i get to "wrestle" with the guys if we need to release the energy within ourselves. yes, indeed you can still call us a bunch of kids. :D i am actually super thankful that we all are. everything is candid and fleeting for us. :D heck, we have already put our friendship "to the next level". ops, wag mag-isip ng green. hahaha. what i mean is, i can already talk to the opposite sex about things that are "more mature". i was once squimish about talking about it, you see. tipong, pornography, rape, courtship, sex, sex videos and magazines, wet dreams, their fantasies, their previous relationships, and just about anything.

BUT STILL-

it's different. before, i would find myself laughing out loud and going with the flow of instant hirits and jokes. haha kasama na diyan mga mimicry. :P i was just considered as a "member" in the wild clan, and wasn't really that wild. you know what i mean> ;)

e ngayon, parang ako na pinakaweird, kalog, at baliw. it's fun getting along with my blockmates, but it's still different VERY different. my blockmates are really wacky too, but not that wild. know what i mean? kasi naman sa stc e, para tayong mga halimaw na linagay sa hawla kaya pag pinakawalan mo, sobra magwala. hahaha.

it's raining again. it makes me senti and emo. it reminds of school and the united prayers of suspended classes. it reminds me of getting stranded in stc and staying up late in school for projects, meetings, or wala lang. tambay. it reminds me of playing in the rain. running and screaming after one another...skipping along the shallow puddles along D. Tuazon. it reminds me of shivering and laughing with fellow hardheaded friends. it reminds me of hot cocoa and dripping wet uniforms. after that, i'd usually change my clothes and daydream while i look outside the window.

oh well. :P

i seriously need some iv2 and ii2 craziness once in a while. :) it's good for the brain! dba? hot LIKE WASABI! hahaha ang labo.

that's alright that's okay! never drugs coz it's bad, you're gonna be a lady BAG! =))

brush your tooth!

grabe, i just wanna bring back time and have one of those super bangag moments wherein we just mimicked other people funny habits. grabe! alala ko hindi na ako makahinga at parang mauutot na ako sa sobrang tawa. hahaha


-august 2007-

UPCAT tips ;)

o sige na nga, magpopost narin ako tungkol sa UPCAT kasi panay nababasa ko na lang ngayon sa mga blog ay UPCAT. hahaha. ang payo ko lang sa inyo ay wag na kayo mag-aral. siryoso. diba sandra? hahaha. totoo naman e. ako nga e, hindi ako nag-aral para sa UPCAT e. as in zero! at tingnan mo nangyari sa akin....hindi ako pumasa ng UP Diliman! hahaha. kaya tularan niyo ako. hahaha.

pero siryoso, wag na kayo mag-aral, masasagutan niyo rin naman ang mga tanong e. surprisingly, nadalian ako sa UPCAT. mas madali pa siya kaysa sa ACET at taeng DLSUCET na yan. hahaha. funny though i passed the two. ;)

brace yourselves with terms such as "solstice"! and a lot of deep filipino words. malunod na kayo sa pagiging duleng sa haba ng mga filipino readings and questions na napaka simple naman talaga. trip lang talaga ng UP iba-ibahan ung arrangement ng words para malito lang kayo.

pero siryoso, madali lang siya. kaya nga ako pumasa ng Ateneo e. HAHAHA ang labo noh?

ganyan talaga ang buhay. ang swerte ko pa, sinakitan pako ng tiyan nung day before UPCAT. as in sobrang sakit na inisip ko ng hindi a alang mag UPCAT. pero nag UPCAT parin ako. mahusay! hahaha.

eto mga tips para sa inyo:
matulog ng maaga. wag magkape! sasakit ulo niyo. pramis.

wag magdala ng higanteng sharpener sa bag para sa UPCAT. ung tipong iniikot mo ung handle para matasa lapis mo? don't fret senior, they provide a sharpener if you need one. :) and besides, i only used 1 pencil during the UPCAT. believe me, a pencil doesn't break that easily!

wag magcram ng last-minute formulas ng mga triangles etc. kasi believe me, hindi naman pumasok sa utak ko yun habang naghihintay ako sa pila.

wag uminom ng maraming tubig. dahil pwede lang kayo magCR pag tapos ka na sa isang part at siyempre kung mabagal ka, hindi ka makakapag CR. hala maihi ka ng di oras.

pag eco bldg ka, magdala ka ng jacket dahil iha, mangangatog ka sa lamig. hay darling! pramis.

best bet mo talaga sa pagkain ay ang candy. :) my faithful companion was lemon Halls! masarap siya. HAHAHA. okay rin ang peanut butter sandwich. wheat bread dapat a. bad brain food ang white flour. dapat rin tingnan mo ingredients ng peanut butter mo darling! dahil kung may corn syrup o artificial flavoring yan, bale wala ang brain food na yan! mabobobo ka lang! hahaha ang nerdy naman ng mga sinabi ko B-)

do also try eating a banana for breakfast. it boosts your energy.

wag magsuot ng masikip kasi maghihingalo ka sa UPCAT. haha.

magdala ng payong! umulan nung upcat namin..

be at least 2 hours early if you live 30 mins away. just do the math if you live farther away.

itali ang buhok!

at pinaka importante!
huminga. believe me, it's not as bad as it seems. :D madali naman talaga UPCAT. problema lang, kalaban mo mga henyo kaya nagmumukhang kang tanga. may solusyon diyan! lasunin lahat ng mga henyo bago upcat. haha.

kaya kayo bahala kung papaniwalaan niyo mga sinabi ko. kasi nga diba, hindi naman ako pumasa ng UPd. sorry naman. pero siryoso, wag na kayo mag-aral. mag-aral na lang kayo sa ACET. :D


hay ang sarap mag-tagalog ngayon. :P


-august 2007-

neopets love <3

	aww i visited my ex-fave site a while ago! neopets! gawd! much has changed there. :P i miss it. i even had to force myself to close the window coz i may get addicted to it again. :P oh well. i got this from one of those neo blog shop thingies. it's just cute :)

-august 2007-

after-intact pics :)

weh lima naman sila e. F5 you're dead!

haha i love my blockmates. :) i love being wacky with them.

for more pics, go to http://ishipotsky.multiply.com/photos/album/109v

-august 2007-

lovely day :)

today was spectacular! hahaha. okay OA na adjective yun. haha but today was fun. i spent it with my best girls in the whole wide world. (ye! daig pa ang world wide web-www). kay and i planned the whole gimik thing at the last minute. i am so thanking GMA for suspending classes! haha. i got to spend time with my ii2 friends. :D arra, josel, megan, keng, kay, kookie, and mimi! we went to trinoma baybeh!

TIMEZONE! ahhh MY sweet timezone! how i longed for you! WAHAHA. as usual, kay was my time crisis buddy. :D we also had our pic taken in one of those japanese-kaya-mali-ang-grammar neoprint kiosks. haha laughtrip! nababoy pa ung isang neoprint :P but it was fun and crazy. :P we opted for the wind effect! hahaha. :P we also had hella fun in the karaoke rooms! NAGWALA TO THE MAX! people were already staring and laughing at us from outside! but who cares? we were having so much fun! sus. they're just jealous. :P

tell me what you want what ya really really want i wanna i wanna i wanna zigga zig ah!

alam naman nating lahat si vinch naman talaga dapat ang vocalist ng parokya band parokya ni edgar

nag-aabang maglalaro kayo ang dalagang nagtatago sa alyas na maldita...sa may bahay ng contrera sa tabi ng tindahan

chiksilog! ako ay naloko! alam ko na sikreto mo! kaya palaaaa ang husay mo sa espada si malditaaaa ay lalaki pala sa gotesco nagpolo pa ako at nagpabango

waiter! wala na bang ma-order! ma-order! tang inang karinderia!

wind it up! yodella-yodellay heho! (haha:P)

everybody!!! rock your body yeah yeah backstreet boys alright!

alapaap!

and many more! :D
with matching talon at sayaw ang mga yan a ;)

haha. we watched the simpsons movie. it was pretty wacked up. as in i had to read a "sensible" thing right after, just to remain "stable with my brain functions". wink wink ;) haha nakakabobo siya. hahaha. but it was funny :)

aww i miss my ii2. :D nothing beats pure craziness :D I LOVE YOU GUYS!


-august 2007-