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Right now, I think I'm beginning to experience this summer bum syndrome again. You know, the restless feeling of doing nothing?! It's just my 2nd day of summer and I feel so dumb already! Haha.

Good thing Dad and I went to PowerBooks yesterday. I bought this fab book, Honeymoon with My Brother. Now, before you can think of some incest and taboo relationship story, lemme tell you that it's actually a story about a man who got dumped by his fiancee a few days before his wedding. Having all the stuff prepaid, he and his brother decided to just go on with the honeymoon...without a bride. After two weeks of self-rediscovery, they extended their honeymoon to years to the extent that they quit their jobs, sold their houses, and sold everything they had just to travel around the world.

"Sometimes you have to travel around the world to discover yourself and the place you call home"

Ahhhhh. :D This is the perfect book for me right now. I feel so empty right now! "I want to fall in love with something!", just like Joey said. I have this feeling that I'm not living my life to the fullest and that I can't die anytime soon. Because if I did, my life couldn't be called something substantial enough for people to know. I want to swim and savor all the different cultures and art as much as I can. I want to discover ANYTHING new(I don't mean academic stuff), and I want to meet different kinds of people. I'm tired being this shy girl who won't even talk to the person next to her in a plane. I want to get out of my own comfort zone and just embrace life.

Go and live my life to the fullest. One day at a time.

No fixed schedules and hasty decisions. I want to explore at my own pace.

I don't know what's going on with me right now, but I've never felt this urge to become someone MORE ever before.

Just like Picasso said, "When you like what you're doing, inspiration will hit you anytime". Or something like that! Haha

-mar08-

purgatorio

hallelujah hallelujah! My hell weeks are finally over! And so is my first year in Ateneo. Wohooo!(wait, is that a WOOHOO or a BOOHOO?!)

Monday: Jap Finals. It was surprisingly easy. :D

Tuesday: Math. Ugh.

Wednesday: Physics. Arrgh. Good thing I studied my Physics book and did not rely on Sir's notes. Wala talagang kwenta notes ni Sir. I also got all my long tests back. Woohoo! I passed! :D

Thursday: Fil magazine submission.

Last week was surprisingly fun despite all the last-minute projects and Finals. We crammed our Fil magazine in 2 nights :P kamusta naman iyon dba? A round of applause please! HAHA.

AWANG.I actually wrote this! It's like an explanation love/rejection letter for Chris Tiu! Haha, well, I can always dream naman, right?! "Hindi tayo para sa isa't isa. Baka katayin pa ako ng mga UAAP fans mo kung malaman nilang linigawan mo ako ng todo-todo at noong nagamakaawa ka sa harap ng Gesu. Pakiramdam kong may babaeng mas nararapat sa iyo. Taliwas ang tahimik mong personalidad sa pagkabaliw ko. Bata pa ako at hindi pa ako handa sa isang relasyon. Ibig ko pang pumunta sa maraming parties at makipagkilala sa mga poging Candy Cuties. Maaaring nag-aaral ka ngayon sa Chinky Chickens..."

my page! haha. I went gaga over the retro modern pics in Flickr! Ahh! this is certainly my dream house :D

love the disco ball?

Shet naiinis ako. Linagyan pala ni Rex ng princess sa intro para sa name ko. Arrgh. I hate being called a princess. (except if you're a girl or a SUPER HOT GUY! HAHA)These are just some of the pages of our fabulous magazine. :P We had it printed at the UP Shopping Center ( if you can actually call it a SHOPPING center) for 20 PHP per page! Shet ang mura talaga. Canon pa iyong photo paper at iyong mismong machine. And it was so fast! Wala pang 5 minutes, na print na iyong 21 pages. HAHA, pwede na akong mag-advertise!

The place was just so freakin' hot though. The shop had 2 air conditioners but it was even cooler outside the shop.

ishi: Rex, bakit parang sobrang init dito sa loob? May 2 aircon naman. At maingay so naka-on naman.

Rex: exhaust lang ata yan e.

ishi: Weh. Bakit ang ingay?

Rex: Style siguro yan. Try mo itapat kamay mo diyan. Mahihigop kamay mo.

WAHAHA.

Friday: Lit Play Finals practice. At least Josel was there. She was supposed to dance with me during the intro of the play proper but she couldn't make it last Sat. But that's ok! Nakidamay naman siya sa mga madugong practices e. :P At oo, masakit pa rin binti ko kakasipa at kakatalon doon sa sayaw. LSS parin ako sa kantang We'll Build God then We'll Talk ng Panic! At the Disco. Our dance was like a puppet/ carnival dance thing.

I also want to thank Kookie, Arra, Megan, Kay, and Keng for volunteering to be extras for our Inferno play! :D Thank you thank you! You really did a great job! Thanks Arra for being my puppeteer and thank you guys for cooperating! You even memorized some lines! Haha, you guys make a great Virgil. Yeah, talking to Minos and all. :P

Intro - Puppet Dance
Minos and DanteSpirit fingers! haha

yihee! haha

Dido and Dante

Ang sarap mag foot spa sa banyo ng ateneo! haha!

Thank you for the A!

Jump for joy!

YUM! that's one big M&M!

Gesu kiddos :D

Do the PMDAS dance! Satisfaction!

YEBA! Salamat sa 95! Woooh! :D

-mar08-

It's love at first sight

The moment I saw you, I just knew that we were meant to be.


Touching you the other day was so electrifying! I can't wait! Just 2 more months, and I shall have you, ZEPHYR.

I named my future-partner-in-crime ZEPHYR, by the way. Zephyr means gentle breeze from the west, fyi. And I dunno, the word just gives this feel of freedom and euphoric highs.

Take me away Zephyr..

Which reminds me, I just realized that being alone isn't that bad after all. In fact, when I'm alone, I get to think more and dig deeper into my thoughts. I get to know myself better and I don't have to bother about pleasing anybody else. And I don't have to "alter" my views when I'm alone.

Don't worry, I'm not becoming a loner. I just realized that being alone does not necessarily mean feeling alone.

When I graduate, my ultimate dream is to travel around the world for as long as I can. Hmm...I'm still thinking if I want anybody to tag along..but I guess a couple of friends would be superb. But I think traveling solo would change how I see things immensely. I want to backpack around the world, with just my Nikon D40, my Venetian leather journal, my MacBook, and just a couple of shirts and jeans!

I know it may be easier said than done...but I really love to travel! My bank account may be so empty by that time but my head would be so full of different cultures and experiences!

-mar08-

all you need is love

Maundy Thursday has come and I can sleep! Yay! I think i was already asleep by 9 last night! That's the first time for i dunno...5 years?! wahaha. I felt so refereshed when I woke up! I finally woke up greeting the 7 am sun! :D It feels great, you should try it too! It beats the 10 am glare anyday and I feel so energized!

I still feel a bit uneasy though. I still have 3 Final tests, a Fil Magazine (which we're going to cram since Sir has still yet to return our papers),and a Lit play before I can finally bid farewell to my freshie year.

Jim Sturgess is do damn HOT!

Oh yeah, I finally watched Across the Universe last week. Yeah, I'm such a loser. Hmm...lemme see. Really, people back those days were so messed up. But I can't blame them either. They were only making the most out of their lives since they weren't sure of their future. War here. War there. So they just made a giant leap and made the most out of their lives more pleasing and enjoyable. Hence, the drugs. And all the freakish love-making. Since a lot of negative "vibes" and dark events were happening in Vietnam, they chose to channel into their "positive and high" vibes. When they got high, they saw colorful but very disturbing creatures. I have this Beatles poster in my room (it's still in its cardboard tube though) and it's very colorful and psychedelic, but whenever I look at it, it makes me feel disturbed and even scared! I guess what happened during the 60s was more like a case of making the most out of their uncertain lives. It's more like escapism, actually.
One of my fave snapshots in the movie. The song here is the ultimate Get-High song!
Because the wind is high it blows mind....

For the Benefit of Mr. Kite.
I didn't like the singing part here. Mr Kite wasn't singing, he was like delivering a poem!
Sayang, the part could have been so superb if they made it more hazy and more psychedelic. The song's so druggish pa naman.

Don't get me wrong though. The movie was fantastic! The graphics, effects, cast, art, and everything was superb! I cried countless of times because the scenes were so surreal. It's like my soul was relived in that movie. It's the type of movie that I HAVE to watch alone because I'll be this freak-o who'll cry, jump, and laugh at the same time. Yeah, I'll be this schizo out of control. I don't think you would understand, but that's the way I am whenever I am in front of an Art piece that deeply moves me. Those things, I just know, I HAVE to experience on my own. :) The ending.. I just can't emphasize to you HOW MUCH I felt. The feeling was just so intense. It's like saaay...a mental orgasm?! (just like how Sir Oca puts it) It was so fucking surreal that I just couldn't contain all my feelings inside of me. It's really hard to explain. And it's really hard to understand too. All those emotions, all those tears and chunks of laughter...those mixed emotions...it was really so surreal to the extent that I couldn't handle it.

I know what you're thinking right now. I HAVE LOST MY MIND. Well, come to think of it, maybe I did. It was just so mind-blowing.

UHUH. That's me. :) Inconsistent and downright crazy. :D I guess I really am a suited 60s head-over-heels hippie wannabe fan who just can't make up her mind.I have a split personality you see, just like a true-blue Gemini. :) It makes me odd but it also makes me eccentric. It's like a roller coaster ride, really. You go into these sudden drops and loops, it's exhilirating!

You should watch the movie, it's life changing. nyaha. Don't expect to have the same experience that I did though. I'm just a self-confessed schizo, that's all. :D

My favorite part was the Bowling scene, wiii! I am falling, I am falling.... :D ALL THE SINGING PARTS were just so mind-blowing!!!! as in WOOSHKAPOOOW! nyahaha. :D

Hold me tight...

Close your eyes..

If I fell in love with you will you promise to be true and help me understand...Coz I've been in love before..

ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE <3>

-mar08-

Bolgia nine

WHAT IS IT ABOUT COLLEGE AND HELL WEEKS RECURRING EVERY SINGLE WEEK?!

Oh damn, when will this end? T.T At least hell weeks in college aren't as INTENSE like in high school. Please, don't even get me started.

Jap Presenation on Monday. Our group's topic is about Fashion! We'll be wearing jap street fashion wear while presenting! I'm going to dress as a school girl. Yeah, I know it isn't original but you can't blame me for that! I'll be way tense that time because Monday's also our LT 3 Physics. ZOMG. KILL ME NOW. huhuhu :( I used to see Physics as something fun. But college Physics isn't exactly fun when your teacher gives trick questions during exams. :( At least Sir gives interesting demos. WOuld you believe that heart-shaped (yes, that's a heart! And I formed that using intermolecular bonds with 2 carbon and 3 dimethylene. I then put some radiation by leaving it under the sun. about 32 degree celcius is fine. Left it at the cathode ray tube overnight, and voila! )

nah I'm just kidding. I didn't even understood half what I said. Would you believe that's only Scotch tape and polarizers (aka shades)?!

Jap orals are fun. :)) Here's Patrick-san and Lui-san having theirs.

Patrick: Lui-san, Piolo Pascual wa hansum desu. Soshite, oishi desu. (Piolo is handsome and yummy too.)

Lui: Dame! Dame! (that's wrong! you bitch! He's mine!)*slaps Patrick

Patrick: Gomennasai. (sorry. then says something that I can't understand)

Lab Finals on Tuesday! Gahd, it's so unfair that the other physics lab classes don't have any finals at all :((

Fil12 orals on Wed! I also have to wear a formal attire, so that'll be a first. Might as well get used to it, as I'll be wearing that everyday after 4 years! My topic's about The Bloomfields and I have to talk about them for 10 whole minutes! And what's worse, my audience is my Prof! Him and only him. That's even harder since I'll have no excuse to "roam" my eyes! I just have to stare at him for 10 minutes! And if it was done in front of a class, at least I'd get some motivation from my blockmates. But oh well, wala na tayong magagawa. At least my topic's interesting! Now, if only I was talking to Miranda na lang instead of Sir, that'd be perfect! nyahaha.

Dad surprised me by giving me the THE BEATLES STORY Audio CD. I'm not yet done listening to the whole CD yet since it's so darn long! It's like listening to a looong documentary, complete with interviews, songs, stories, etc. <3>

Just as Marc said, "Kala ko ba Holy week next week? Bakit parang hell week?" FINALS WEEK NEXT NEXT WEEK. That's after Holy Week.

hehe. Oh well. We all have our hard times. At least all this will be over in a few days. At least I only have to worry about 3 more days next week. Then there's still LIT prac. Our lit finals will be on the 29th so kamusta naman iyon dba? We'll be presenting Canto V of Inferno. The Circle for the Lustful and Carnal. Lit practices are very interesting. :) It's fun learning how to dance. Especially when you're relying on youtube instructional videos. WTH. One "instructional" vid didn't even show the feet. SO WOW. SALAMAT AH. HOW HELPFUL. Naka-focus lang ung camera sa mukha ng dancers. hayayay. :)) Practices also became laugh fests. Choreographing a fight scene can really get interesting. Omushirui desu yo!

Here's Bao as Paolo. Dedok na siya.

I'm done with my last ENG 12 paper! wooohoo! Clap. Clap. Clap. It's my first Eng paper that I did in one sitting. I do hope I get an A.

Another major project for Fil! WHAT THE HELL. I think Sir's gonna let us cram it since all our papers are still with him and we need that for the final project.

I just found out that Vampire Weekend will BE COMING NEAR THE PHILIPPINES!!! ARRGH THEY SHOULD PASS BY HERE TOO! Please o please, give me money so that I could buy a ticket to Osaka, Japan! Gahd, most of their concerts are SOLD OUT! AS IN! ZOMG. And they're already booked until August 10 this year! (Osaka concert) I must watch them! :((

Okay, 'till here! Seeya soon! (If I'm still alive that is. 2 more hellish weeks!)

-mar08-

effin hormones

I've never felt this bitter in my entire life. EVER.

This might sound utterly weird, but really. I cried my heart out awhile ago and I can't even pinpoint which of the things I've been thinking about triggered it. I guess it's all of it. It was so weird talking to myself aloud. It's like I felt that there was another person beside me. That was the first time that I just talked to myself as if there was an audience to listen to what I had to vent out. Tipong ung character sa play na nagmumuni-muni sa tabi at umiiyak? Pero, helpful pala talaga iyon. It's better than not releasing it in any way.

Ang drama talaga.

I originally planned to release all of those here, but on second thought, wag na nga lang. Thanks miranda, for tolerating my weirdness!

Maybe it's thanks to my effin' hormones.

Most of the schools are done already so Waaaaa. Hay. Aza aza fighting! Kaya ko 'to!

-mar08-

Bragging can be good at times

Stress is practically in my veins right now. There's so much to do! It also doesn't help that it's my first day today. Boo. But I'm currently printing my Fil paper so I'm a bit relieved. :D yay!

We just got our second drafts back in Eng12! I swear, I wasn't expecting an A! And a 100 at that! Paano naman kasi, my Prof always gives us Cs and Bs. But I dunno, maybe she's really in love or something. :P She might even use my paper for samples. 0.o ZOMG it's my first time! yay!

Physics lab tomorrow. 730 am for crying out loud. But at least we're just going to "jam and partaaay" (my prof's own terms). Oh please. She just wants us to give her a passing mark for evaluation. Sorry dearie, All you're going to get from me are 3s (5 is the highest rank, btw. And 3 aint a good grade). But I still like her for "Very Good"-ing our group! We were the only ones who got that, so I guess that's a good sign.

Lit14 long test on Wed. That's something new. That'll be our first test ever (besides the midterms).

No more PE! Woohoo! And oh yeah, talking to my opponent last week was rather funny.

opponent: How many times have you fought na?
ishi: umm..twice? Diba lahat naman tayo?
opp: huh?! you've fought two already and you won in both fights?!
ishi: bakit? ikaw ba hindi? :P
opp: No! you know what, maybe you're so good at this! I'm honestly super scared right now!
ishi: Ano ka ba. I'm not good kaya. Don't worry, I'm super sabaw today!

Round 1:
5 and 1
I won.
Seriously, nagulat na lang talaga ako. I wasn't hitting her anymore since I seriously didn't want to go to the Culminating Act last Sunday. Pero wala e, lahat ng mga palo ko malakas e. Lahat "pasok". Well, sorreh. :D

Round 2:
3 and 4.
She won.
It was so funny because we were just both laughing because we both couldn't see anymore! HAHA. Our bandanas were already blocking our eyes. :))

Round 3:
3 and 4 again.
She won. Yay!
Seriously, I was so relieved that I swallowed my ego and just let her win. I didn't want to wear that stinky Arnis guards anymore. It smells like a wet dog. And the arm guards are like..dripping from other people's sweat?! And I couldn't afford to lose another day because I had to do so many things! So I just let her win. And good thing I was on the side where I could monitor my score! This may sound too mayabang, but it's true! HAHA. Pero sige na nga, mayabang na ako. That's okay. If you're reading this, you're probably my friend. :P Hey, we all have our moments!

Anyhoo, it's getting late. There's still a long week ahead of me. But bragging a bit helps! At least I know that my efforts are worth it.

-mar08-

ping-pong

How come my hell weeks aren't over yet?! WHAT THE FUCK. Naiinis na talaga ako. As in.

I still have to turn in 3 papers for Eng12. And I thought I only had to write one more. Well, thanks to my Eng prof. Clap Clap Clap. It isn't our fault we consumed so much time for the Defense. It was her idea anyway. Other Eng12 classes didn't have one either.

Jap class this week will be rather mind-boggling and confusing since I can't understand anything anymore. Ugggh. Benri tokoro o ikimashitaka? Hayayay. I'll also have my Kaiwa (oral conversational exam] on Friday. I made the script! I just hope it'll go well. Let's go Pauline-san and Victor-san! Haha.

Fil Paper was moved to Tuesday but I still have no idea how I'm going to write that thing! Panig ng tagapagsalaysay? SIno ang tagapagsalaysay? Maasahan ba sila? Pffft.

Math Long test on Thursdayyyyyyy. Please lang. Lumuhod na kayo sa Quiapo at nahihilo na ako sa mga logarithms.

Jap presentation next week. Arrgh. Ang hirap pala may upper year na groupmate. Hindi mo mapakita sa harap niya na naiinis ka na dahil wala siyang ginagawa. arrrgh.

Another Hell Week. Another pain in the neck.

Now, I wouldn't want to sound to negative since I don't want to pass the bad vibes on to you guys. So I'll smile.

:D Voila!

Haha.

Btw, love my sounds? I'm so addicted to Vampire Weekend!!! <3 Check their myspace :)
-mar08-

pics taken during bonus plays

Rex the clown.

It's obvious the I aint used to UP culture.

Oliver's too preoccupied with "business". HAHA.Guitar Heroooo! HAHA. Ang cute ng aso. May navel pa siya. My attempt of imitating/mocking a drawing of an ex-theresian's(lesbian) drawing of a brief.
Okay. This was taken during my date with Miranda. We love strawberries! Congrats Miranda :D


We got bored waiting for Miranda's sundo.

We're learning the Tango for our Lit play.

We walked-thru the McDo Drive Thru! HAHA.

-mar08-

psychedelically silly

Oh darn. I actually promised myself awhile ago that I wouldn't do anything that isn't related with academics. And look at me now. You're now reading something I wasn't supposed to do. Do you feel my rebellious ways? (haha, that line was supposed to be a pun)

Oh GAWD. KILL ME NOW. My Oral Defense for my eng paper has been moved to Monday so the weight on my chest hasn't said goodbye yet. I just know that I'll fidget until I won't be able to answer any of my Prof's questions. Oh poo. Whatever.

Yesterday was quite fun. Miranda and I had our second date together. But it was in Eastwood this time. Yeah I know! It's been too long! The last time we watched The Bloomfields together was like a year ago? Like summer, perhaps? Oh well, I've heard that a new batch of groupies has been following the Boys like they were tails on the boys's butts. I've never considered being a full-time fan girl, fyi. That's because I have a life. I have my own things to do, my own fun, and my own glimpse of the glamorous life. [okay, maybe not on that last one ] But really, I'd rather not bother too much with other people's lives. Wala rin naman akong mapapala. [Am I bitter? Nah, I just feel rather disgusted by the sight of super fangirls/fanboys who take their idols much to their veins that it hinders them to have a normal life]


Next week is the REAL HELL WEEK. Hello Inferno and all of its Circles.

The next few weeks will be super hectic. All my weekends are booked for Lit practices, papers, Orals, and deeper eyebags. I'm so used to sleeping at around 1 or 2 already. Hmm. :(

My room's face lift process is almost done! I just changed all of my linens and switched to psychedelic/60s/retro prints! I can say that I tend to hang around my room more often, now that it really looks vintage. And when classes end, I'll be framing 4 Ultra fab vintage posters to complete the vibe of my room. :D I'll be waking up to the sight of Paul McCartney, Audrey Hepburn, and Elvis! wooohoo! :D I can't wait! I'm also done printing the design of my customized mirror. I used some Photoshop brushes and I'm really hoping that the Glass Etcher artist can do it!

Sorry for boring you. Here's something that might make you laugh:

Sir Oca: Okay class. Today, we''ll be discussing the poem of [insert author here] who wrote [insert title with the word Coconut].

[The poem is like a tribute to the Coconut tree by stating that it's the tree of life...very nurturing like a mother...the Coconut husks are like nipples of a woman..the coconut milk is like the fluids that women produce..]

Sir Oca: Now, class. Why did the Jose Garcia Villa compared the coconuts to the nipples of a woman?

Student: Sir, because it's a figure of nurturing and sensitivity.

Sir Oca: Yesss! It's very sensitive and very ticklish too! Go on try it! Diba? [starts touching his nipples] You know like sa guys, the nipples become erect when touched. Bakit kaya? Mr Riskin, go on try it! Touch it! Why?

Okaay, I already felt uneasy reading the poem by itself. He didn't have to go all out with that! Yeah, Sir is definitely cheap when it comes to orgasms. He himself said so. He says these things for him to have these mental orgasms. Oh well, at least Lit doesn't lull us to sleep.

Oh yeah, the serious part of my blog, Jun Lozada (can this topic be any more overdiscussed?). For my entire life, this was the first time that I really made the effort to know what's going on in this country (without being forced to by my socsci teacher). It really is mind-boggling. You really know that you're not in hs anymore when you really care about the News. It's weird when you suddenly talk about politics with your kabarkada as if it was like some sort of casual chikka. Iba na talaga. Ateneo has also been very active regarding the Lozada issue. I think we're beating UP at it. HAHA. For the past 2-3 weeks, Ateneo students and faculty members have become activists, shouting out their beliefs along Gate. 2.5 Katipunan Avenue almost everyday. It was like so surreal. Never have I thought that the day would come that Ateneans can be called aktibistas. Hello, may rally sa school araw-araw? Medyo sanay narin ako. Haha. Paano ba iyan? :)) They even had their own assembly yesterday at Xavier before going to the Makati rally. Sabi nga nila mas madami pa daw Atenista kaysa mga taga UP. Bagong buhay na ba ito? Malay mo, maisip na talaga ng ibang tao na ang stereotype na Atenista ay hindi Conyo.

Oh no, I have to go now. Gotta hear mass!
-Mar08-