let your light shine

I know I'm regressing back to 2 years ago, but I just can't help it. It was too precious to just forget. Or not even try to reminisce about.

I watched a couple of hs video clips, and I was laughing my ass off. But after that 5 minute stomach exercise, I felt really really sad. Knowing that things won't ever be whatever it used to.

Nevertheless, I am proud of myself for finally recognizing the more serious side of me. The more mature one. I think.

I've toned down already (even if it's so hard to believe) and I think I see things more clearly now.

But I guess there's SOME truth to the saying that "Ignorance/innocence is bliss." But I guess all those raging hormones and fart-inducing laughtrips were just part of adolescence. Happy times. Times that I can never rewind.

No matter how much we have reunions, reality will always tell us to grow up. Leave. Tone down. Cover your mouth when you laugh. Try not to rotate 360 degrees when you laugh out loud. Comb your hair. Be civilized.

We are better off now. We're only a few steps from the real life, right? It's just about time.

Even if we all long for what's in the past, the past will always be the past. No matter how much we wish we could all forget about everything and be high school lesbos again, time won't budge.

I'll forever love you guys.

And it is time. High time we get some seriousness and a bit of loneliness in our blood. In little amounts, it'll work wonders. :)

Till next time, :)

I'm glad that I have fixed goals this time. It's better to be one-sided and driven than be stagnant and clueless. Hmm. Just something I wanted to say out loud.

I'm really trying to bring back some creative life into me though. I think I'm becoming too boring.

There's just really something missing. I guess it just came with the leaving of the spontaneity. Hmm. Ugh. In between. Such a gemini.

I am not making sense, am I? What's new.

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Finally brought Zenith (my mac pro) to school and had the macci guy install the wifi. My ym didn't work again. Just like what happened last time with my sony vaio. Well at least this time there's no virus.

Anyway, I have to drag my butt off this Mac. I think it's the cause of me not being able to study properly. I get distracted. :S But how can I ignore the oh-so perfect aluminum finish and the 2.4 Ghz silver box in front of meeeeeeh. So fast and so not like windows hahaha.

Oh well I'm going nowhere.

toosh

Stat test went pretty okay. Originally it was supposed to be from 5-8 but we were dismissed by 7. The test was relatively easy - which scares me to bits. Usually when I feel this, I'm missing something about the test.

But I dunno, it'll be really hard to get an A since Sir will be basing the score with the average of the class. So even if I have a couple of mistakes, it would still depend on how well my classmates did. Since the test was easy, I'm betting that everyone will get high but only few will get an A.

Oh well, too early to say. But I do hope I get great marks with this one. Please lang.



Another set of tests again next week. It's the 2nd LT week again.


It's been getting really chilly these days, I just love it! I just wish that some sort of miracle will occur. You know, the Philippines suddenly floating upward - away from the equator. We can stay beside Japan or China. I long for the four seasons, that's why. But then again, acknowledging the facts, many people will die in the Philippines. With only a few yeros and car wheels, I don't think those squatter materials are really braced for snow storms.

But wouldn't it be rather interesting to see Pasig river with all the garbage love and filth freeze with all of it? I wonder if anyone will dare to ice skate in it. Haha. Silly thought.

With barbaric and inhumane thinking, the four seasons might actually do some good with our country. At least there will be less slums, less eye sores, less poor people to poop on the river. No more beggars in the streets. Less drug pushers. Less uneducated children. Less incestual rape. It's just another matter of survival of the fittest, isn't it?

Don't go get a kitchen knife and stab me right now. It's just another view of seeing it. But I do think like that sometimes. Then I slap myself after for doing so.

But then again, it's another parallelism of the term in Economics, the invisible hand. Where you just let the economy be. Do nothing, it'll save itself. It's like saying don't reduce, reuse, recycle. Pollute the environment. Let there be Global warming and brace the moment when all the ice caps melt. The Earth has been here before us, we're just its parasites. It will eliminate us if it's necessary. Let there be war worldwide. We'll all die anyway.

And it can be as simple as Don't take a bath anymore, you'll just get dirty anyway.

Just some random thoughts. I'll sleep na, I'm so bangag with all the z-scores and percentile ranks stuck in my head.

serves him right

Stupid mongrel. So full of himself. Thinks everything I do and say revolves around his pathetic existence.

Can't he get a clue?

May mga bagay talaga hindi nagbabago.

nemasu!

Before hitting the sack, I just wanna slap myself via blogging.

These past days have been not that productive, it's disappointing. Now that I made killer resolutions compared to previous years, why can't I lift my lazy butt of the computer?! Ugh. Maybe it has something to do with what happened during new year midnight. I was multi tasking at that time. Not focused on one thing.

But NO. I shall not be a victim of those symbolic beliefs. Nothing is fated. I must. I must. I must.

Just when I thought I wasn't going to be slacking, I'm slacking. But when I thought I'd slack, I didn't.

Oh the irony of me.

NOOOOO. I MUST FOCUS!!!!!

Btw, my standing in my classes aren't that impressive either. Woohoo.

I should really slap myself. WAKE UP DUDE!

Comforting myself

Why is it this way? When I knew I did okay, it becomes not okay.

When I don't expect, I get amazing results.

Is it just my genetic makeup tying me down? Must I work my ass off until I crawl?



Anyway, this should be a learning for me. Just proves that my New Year resolutions are so fitting.

I shouldn't dwell much on it. That was last year, right?

Yosh!

I can't believe it took me so long to figure out how to work the macro function in my Opteka lens. I thought it just had one of those features that they advertised just to get people to buy them. I thought it wasn't one of those features that was worth noticing since the lens was so cheap to begin with. How can they make this 60 dollar lens so cheap and worth the money? While I was too busy trying to make better use of the Nikon 55-200 mm zoom lens, I never bothered playing with the Macro "feature" of the Opteka lens. Kasi naman diba, kala ko joke lang iyon ng company na macro pala ung maliit na extension lens na iyon? E pag kinabit mo naman, parang sobrang blurred na magnifying glass lang ung itsura?

I wonder why I never tried going near to an object - you know, closer than an inch using that "macro" lens. Coz I dunno, THERE WEREN'T ANY INSTRUCTIONS INCLUDED?! Just a cardboard box and a rubber band. :|

Ott, Raffy, and Tiki. Hahaha
Haven't tried it outdoors yet though. Wonder how it'll turn out.
I was just thinking, it doesn't look that macro-ish. But hey, I can't complain about a 60 dollar 3-in-one lens.

Ahhhh. Ganoon pala iyon. Hahaha.

yosh!

I started learning how to drive just awhile ago in Talayan. Gosh, never did I realize how much I could sweat because of the jitters. But I think I'm getting used to it already. It's even easier than I expected. (But hey, it's too early to say) I even drove back home. Oh eff. I braved Araneta avenue and Retiro. Hahaha. And the stoplight by Araneta ave was even busted. Oh well. At least I didn't bump the car on my first day.

I'm proud of myself so far. It's one step closer towards my new, confident, and independent self. Last night, somebody even called me cold. Nyahaha. Well, he's one of those low-lives, so don't worry lovelies. I'm still the sorta sweet Ishi you all know when I'm with you. (Btw, I'm not a lesbian)

I also eat pork less now. Well, there's no real effort there anyway. There's something about pork and meat that makes me wanna hurl.

And oh, I think I'll be studying every New year's eve from now on. Well last year I was doing my argumentative paper. Haha. It feels good doing something responsible and self-benefitting during New year's eve, through midnight, and New year's day. It's liberating. You should try it. Besides, my family stopped having family reunions and fire cracker marathons during new year's eve since I was in grade school so I have nothing else to do anyway.

I've also became more sociable yesterday. The Lumanlan side went over for merienda and it felt good staying there instead of staying by myself in my room.

So far, so good. I hope that I get to maintain it throughout the year.

Yosh! I'm bracing myself for an exhilarating one.

P.S.
I also made a poupee account and I'm addcited to it! I'm filling my closet with my own stuff, I'm excited. Haha. Here's my outfit for the day.


Do I look like it? Haha. Too bad about our climate here though. I always dreamed of layering and wearing savvy coats.

I'll be posting my poupee on my sidebar so that I can change the outfit anytime. :)